What you’ve been seeing here since the middle of August — or rather, not seeing — is me taking necessary (in)action to prevent burnout from getting worse. It’s the sort of burnout that’s apparently rather common for people of my nonstandard neurology. (I mean autistic, kids, not… the other ways in which my brain’s wiring doesn’t match the usual specifications.) My entire life, I’ve had this tendency to drop everything when I feel that I can’t get it all done, but this time I’m trying to just drop some of it, and only temporarily, because that seems as if it would work better. (Dropping nothing is not an option.) I just didn’t know why this happened. And apparently I’m still not supposed to know why it happens, but that’s a tirade for another day.
Sensory overload doesn’t mix well with chronic pain, either, and the pain I have throughout my body is only made worse with the sort of weather we’ve been having in this part of the country for months. (Sub-freezing temperatures in October! And then back up to “shirtsleeve weather” the next week…)
“Just make a list of everything that has to be done and then decide what tasks have top priority.” Yeah. As if it were that easy! I’m not a list-maker at the best of times, and executive functioning is one of the first things to go. Sometimes during burnout I can get stuff done if someone else figures out for me what to do, but not always. (And there’s no need for anyone to leave a nasty comment on this post and call me names or tell me what I’m doing wrong. Believe me, I’ve already said all of that — and worse — to myself.)
Anyway, I think I’m “back” now. (Wrote most of this post in little bits over the course of a few months — that’s how bad the burnout was.) Blogging to resume as normal… which is to say, frequent but just as weird as ever. 🙂